"Words! Mere words! How terrible they were! How clear, and vivid, and cruel! One could not escape from them. And yet what a subtle magic there was in them! They seemed to be able to give a plastic form to formless things, and to have a music of their own as sweet as that of a viol or of lute. Mere words! Was there anything so real as words?"
-The Picture of Dorien Gray


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Sorry it took so long, but here are my 7 songs of nihongoodness

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Since all my friends have been tagged, I can't tag anyone. XD;;

Yesterday was a good day. Roses make a Laura happy.

Today was a baaaad day.

Work sucked. WoW sucked. I got angry for stupid reasons at John.

I suck.

But the end for work is near. Fuck you very much Rob!

I didn't get an interview...

I was gonna give it up... maybe. But now I don't have to.

But fuck, I suck.

"One is not all alone, but is one person."

Ever insightful Miyavi, how I do adore thee.

Sugizo is in Acid Black Cherry? Why didn't anyone tell me!?!?!

Amazing.

Meanwhile, I am working overtime because my coworker got arrested. Also, feeling bluer than the bluest blue. A certain person got to me yesterday, and my current situation doesn't help matters.

BUT!

Sugi is in Acid Black Cherry! Wheeeeeeeeee

I am a shitty friend.

Sorry Sascha and Amanda.

I suck at life.

I also can't sleep.

The suckage at life continues.

Also, I hate my job.

BLAH.

I can't resist this song.




My single came in a few days ago. I love Sugizo. I need to get the C:LEAR album, stat. Also, Miyavi's new single is featuring Sugisan. I'm so HAPPY and filled with JOY and JOYNESS.

I saw this and couldn't ignore the awesomeness of it all. I think I want to collect all the singles/cds I can find with this man... then work on Miyavi singles?

Crap. I am totally addicted to jrock.

On that note, here is some more Miyavi love:

I'm so completely and utterly happy right now.

Thank you God. For all the shit you've put me through...

Was it for this? Who knows.

So wonderful...

Trying to beat this feeling down - die devil!

I've been okay for a while but then it sometimes hits me like this - like an unexpected rush of emotion.

I try to tell myself otherwise but it won't help. Some nights, it's to be expected.

In other news, I am looking for another job. Going to talk to my boss about the promotion - if I don't get it I'm there as long as I get something else. I don't care anymore.

Right now it's itchy as hell. What do you guys think? The artist did a nice job.

I did it. I got my tattoo (don't worry Amanda, I was really picky and it looks pretty good... I think. We should hang out and you can tell me how much it sucks )

I'll take a picture soon..

My birthday was awesome.

What am I doing? I have no idea; I feel like my head is going to explode.

I've stayed at McDs and hoped for a promotion. It's been a month and nothing. Still making shit for money and for what?

6 years I've been working there. There is no point.

Fuck you depression. Why do you rise so soon to my birthday?

I just need to watch/listen to more Miyavi/Sugizo. My world turns so much better with that.

Japan is soon. Right?

Miyavi in skull hoodie.

Exact Skull Hoodie on Ebay

I really want to. I'm supposed to be poor. Damn you ebay.

Today I saw Shannon. After so many years that she's been so far away, I saw her smiling face. Angela, Shannon and I drinking together; it was like old times back in High School. Some things, some friendships just stand that width of time and space and just take hold forever. I love that girl.

I just wish I was able to spend more time with her husband; I've only talked to him on aim, and I wanted to get to know him better. I also feel bad about waking Kaylee.. poor girl. After such a long flight, she didn't have a good time.

Things have changed, but our friendship hasn't. I'm so thankful for every person in my life; I wouldn't be who I am today without you all. Thank you.

I just got Truth? in the mail. IT IS AMAZING. DEAR GOD AMAZING SUGIZONESS. WORTH EVERY PENNY I PAID FOR IT.

Watch this, this is a song from it:

It's been a while; much to update on but no will to do so. I was threatened at work; Stephen told me he had a sharp knife and could use it against me. I almost called the police. I wish I did. He was suspended for a week - next anger outburst will be the end of him.

I got horribly sick on my day off in a while. It figures. I'm still recovering from it.

I've started WoW. I can't believe John suckered me into it. I fail.

And I'm still really into Sugizo. I bought Truth? off ebay and I'm super excited about it. I can't wait until it comes in the mail - happy day.

I still watch the video for Synchronicity usually every day. I guess it's a good purge, because I always (or usually) cry. It's good to just let all of that frustration and emotion out.

Anyway sorry for the shortness but there really is no motivation to do anything. Work sucked it all out. I hate you McDonalds.

For Miyavi's birthday, watch his new video! I love it and his new style! Happy birthday my sweetest Miyavi!



And I just saw this amazing video. I cannot resist the SUGIZO SUPER LOVE <3




And I love the violin, have I told you?




Let no one lie to you, Sugizo is amazing.

Every day I go to work and I do my best; it's never enough. The strain sets carrying the world upon my shoulders (it gets heavy after a while). I hate my job, it's as simple as that. I try to get another, and nothing.

My mother mentioned it to me that perhaps this is God's way of getting me out of the country; make me so unhappy that I must flee the country to seek solstice. I mean, my plan is to go to Japan, but I know I have my reservations. To go some place (which I've only read about) away from all my friends and family. It's daunting indeed. But if I'm unhappy enough with my situation, I'll do it. I have to do it. It's something I always wanted to do.

I just wish I wasn't so miserable.

Also, I just found out that the one guy I had/have feelings for is dating someone (more beautiful than I hahaha). Good for him, right? I'm happy for him. I shouldn't be getting giddy over boys anyway, if I'm to go to Japan in a year, hm? でも、さびしいがだいきらいね。

雅はいつも”We Love you~世界は君を愛してる”と歌います。友達と家族いつもがあいしてる。そして、いつもいきます。日本に行きます。先生をなります。ほんとに。”がんばって”といましょう！

Wow, Japanese is rusty. I need to practice on some magazines and manga, yo.